I hate ugly

Thursday, April 10, 2008


The words seemed larger than life, her messaged titled ’IN REALITY’. Perhaps it was because I just woke up and hadn’t had my coffee yet. It was brewing and I continued with my morning routine… trying to ignore the fact that she sent me a message into myspace. I read my daily devotions and continued to open my email. So there it sat in myspace inbox, taunting me. Oh yes, she’s so good at taunting people lol. I immediately regretted not setting my options to ’don’t accept messages from non-friends’ or whatever.

I don’t know if I made the coffee too strong and I felt jittery, but suddenly I deleted her message without reading it. Seriously, I am embarrassed to say but I immediately went to the TRASH BOX to retrieve it and I stared at the message and her myspace photo next to it. I had to shut my eyes quickly before they burned (obviously from the lack of sleep haha) I said a quick prayer! Thank you Lord for giving me the courage to leave it where it belonged… IN THE TRASH! For I was sure that it was full of negative and mean things. I thought about the words in the Lord’s Prayer "and lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil" And then I deleted it forever. What a relief!!

So you see, I’m not going to be sucked in and I’m sure there will be some kind of repercussion… there always is. If I continued down that road I’d be engaging in behavior that is not very Christian-like. No, I’m not perfect! But I do try to be a good person, set a good example for my boys, put others before myself and make it my goal to love and encourage my friends and family daily. There are times when negativity rears its ugly head. Yes it’s true, I started looking at her page and I immediately started feeling that negativity. I was informed about a blog she posted and it upset me because prior to that I had just put the same thing in a bulletin to my friends (yes, Ray’s son is on my friends list). That’s when I became the sucker and things just escalated! It was stupid on my part, but at least we know that things have not changed. Eight years of negativity and sheer meanness, it gets old!! And I’m pretty sure that years from now we will still be dealing with the same old issues. Isn’t it a shame, all this wasted time?


Each of you should look not only to your own interests, but also to the interests of others. Philippians 2:4

Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen. Ephesians 4:29